though i love bball, it makes me feel so insignificant lorhh.
its like i plae it badly, ppl dun wan me on their team. and always sae things that would hurt me " she plae so lousy! wan her for wadd! " " dun pass ball to her " "ehh you stand outside and watch us plae lehh! " " wadd is ur problem!! " " catch the ball also cannot! "
its like WTF lorhh. so wadd if i dun plae it well?? at least i am trying to plae it well!! this is why whenever there is a chance to plae bball, i will definitely plae as its like a chance for me to practise!!. if i am not trying, not practising, then you can sae all those words a s i derserve it! but even when i am trying, practising and sae those words, IT HURTS. it really do.
only zheng cao is patient with me. everytime he is the captain of a team, he will definitely choose me. this is something that not even jonathan or damien would do! he is the only one who bother to teach me and always pass ball to me for me to shoot. although almost all the time i miss. so wadd?? he knows i am trying! if i was not in his team, ppl will just ask me stand aside and do nth. they will NEVER pass the ball to me. they dun even give me a chance. when i try to get the ball, they will only sae i extra. NOBODY WANTS TO TEACH ME ! NOT EVEN MY BROTHER! HE'S MY REAL BROTHER AND HE DON EVEN CARE! wth i do to deserve this?? even joanthan damien would look down on me. and i still treat them as my besties..
i'm already trying and no chance is given.. is this fair?? everytime its like that. cant do something right and this happens.
fine!! I'M A IDIOT! happy?? freakos. i cant do aniithing right all the time! come hme mother call me WOODBLOCK. do hsewrk also cannot do properly. project wrk also can dragg others dwn the drain.. USELESS..